Happy Holidays! Hope Christmas was great up there :)
So guess what? Remember that test I had to study for a several months and I asked you to help me pass it come exam day. (Sorry for bugging you all the time about that haha) Well, the results came in earlier this month and I PASSED! ^_^ I was cleaning the garage out and hanging Christmas decorations for the Christmas party that we usually throw with all my high school friends and my coworker, Kevin… the japanese one that’s the same age as you, kik messaged me that he had passed, so I ran to the mailbox and there was the envelope. I was too nervous. I had to sit down inside for a little before I opened it. It’s such a relief! I didn’t want to tell mom, so instead I just gave her the letter to read it for her self. You probably seen how happy she was when she read those words
"Congratulations! You have achieved a passing score on your recent NCEES exam."
She hugged me so damn tight and you know short she is… so i had to bend down a little… she was crying too.
"I’m so proud of you son!"
After she let go she just kept on asking me if I wanted something for passing the test… I didn’t want anything. But there was one thing. I was cleaning the living room floors when she came home so I had asked her to help me clean hahaha. But she said no since it was my party. -_- Lame, I know :) but she was still happy.
I did want something though, (i’m crying) I wanted to get a hug from you. Or a hand shake… or a smile… or a thumbs up… something. Kept on looking at your pictures while I was cleaning and I was just so happy to know that I passed, it almost felt like you were gonna come home so that we could brag about all the good things we’ve done to ourselves. Haha. Just like the good old days in high school.
Can’t help but think about you whenever something like this happens. Sometimes it’s all I do because that’s how much I miss you. But you already know that. :’)
I wanted to say thank you for watching over me and keeping me strong. I don’t know how I did it, but it took a lot for me to work, make as many dance rehearsals as humanly possible since we were getting ready for World of Dance Hawaii 2011, and study for the exam all at the same time. Fitting in sleep and food was hard enough. Things are looking up for me and mom this coming year, and I hope that soon, we’ll get closure from your loss.
I’ll do my best to keep strong for mom, for my students at dance with Cierra and Henry, and for everyone else that may look up to me as a role model. I can’t let anyone down now, there’s just too much that I’ve built up my life to be and I’m only going higher with every step of the way. I love you, and I really really really really miss you.